Sick Cycle Carousel

The story of my life. I have a select few songs that I could call the story of my life but at the moment I can relate most to this song. It is called Sick Cycle Carousel by Lifehouse.
I feel like my life just keeps going around and around. Its a cycle, I do good for a while, I don't cut, a month goes by and I cave in and I cut, then I do good for another month and cave in shortly after that month ends. That's just how it goes. Its a sick cycle carousel. You can tell when I cut, you can see the shame in my face in my eyes in the way I carry myself, I become shame. No matter how hard I try to beat this I fail. I fail over and over again. It feels like it will never end. I will always be going through these motions I'm stuck on this carousel, it wont stop, I cant get off, I'm stuck. I have been so down, so low, and I have tried to climb the steps. I have tried to get out of this low point in my life but no matter how hard I try, no matter how high I climb, I never make it to the top. I always lose my balance and I fall. I fall all the way back down to the ground hitting my head on every step. By the time I reach the bottom I'm in so much pain I don't even bother to try again.

If shame had a face I think it
would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
Well here we go now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get it down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I tried to beat this

So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kinda thought it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I tried yo beat this

So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this...

Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle, yeah

So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel...