So I was talking in the blog before this about the Rob Bell thing I went to. I said I heard a story about a kid who attempted to commit suicide and the reaction from the crowd really just ticked me off. So I'm guna tell you the story cuz I want to know what you think.

See there was this kid and he was in the hospital because he attempted to commit suicide. Rob went to visit him and talk with him. He asked the kid what happened so the kid told him.

His friends parents were out of town. They had a hot tub. He went over got a toaster and plugged it in next to the hot tub. To help speed the process up he cut his arm and he started drinking. Pause, I just want to point out how much pain this kid must have been in to want to end his life at 17. He thought it would be easier to end his life then continue to live it. Ok back to the story. So he is sitting on the edge of the hot tub with his feat in the watter and a toaster plugged in next to him, bleeding and wasted. His intentions were to loose some blood and push the toaster into the watter ending his life. Because he lost a massive amount of blood he instead passed out and fell on the toaster burning his arm and sending himself to the hospital. Ok just think about it for a min. He cut himself so deeply that he lost enough blood to pass out. Again think of how much pain this kid was in to be willing to do that to himself.

So like I said I heard this story at the Rob Bell thing and I told you the reaction from the crowd ticked me off. Well you want to know what they did? They laughed. They thought it was funny. I don't know about you but I always laugh when I hear a story about a kid who attempts to kill himself... not. I don't think suicide is funny. I don't think people should laugh about the way people commit suicide. I don't think it is funny when people have pain so deep that they don't know wheat else to do except end there life. It just really upsets me that people can laugh about that, that people can hear a story about a 17 year old kid who tried to kill himself and laugh. Maybe its because I know what its like to feel like you have to cause your body physical pain to feel better. But i really didn't think people would laugh about it. Maybe I don't know some of the people I was with as well as I thought. I guess self harm is just one big joke to some people. It's a shame some people get there laughs from someones pain. I did learn that I need to be more careful who I talk to about my cutting because I might end up being the one they laugh at next.