God Is Moving

Ok so in the past week a lot has happened. It has been a rough depressing week and it has pretty much sucked. But God placed this amazing person in my life about 4 years ago and He has been using her to move in my life so much these past few months. I am so grateful for our friendship and that she has allowed God to use her. Last night I went with her to discovery. Lately I haven't really been wanting to go to church, especially this week. But on Wednesday night and Sunday morning she came with me...so I kindu had to go cuz I couldn't make her go by herself. So Sunday night she decided she was guna go to Status at Discovery and she invited me to come with. I didn't want to go but my options were to go to Status or go Home and I didn't really want to do either. I decided to go to status and I am so glad that I did. It was so amazing I haven't been to something like that since CIY...though it's not as good as CIY that's what it reminded me of. I don't think anything will ever be as good as CIY...except Heaven. But yea it was awesome and we talked about our mission. What is our mission? Are we passionately pursuing our mission? Where is our life pointed? Is it pointed in a way of our mission or are we distracted and pointing a different way? We talked about Jesus and how He knew His mission because He knew who He was and He knew the Father. How am I supposed to know my mission if I don't know who I am and I don't know the father? I know that the direction of my life is not pointing toward my mission, I have been distracted and running on another direction. The decisions I have been making about school and just life in general have been exactly that...decisions that I have been making. I don't know where God wants me to go to school, I waned to go to Johnson because I wanted to get far away for here, from "home". I don't know where I'm going to go now, last night my plans and just everything got flipped upside down. I had all my ducks in a row and I was set, I knew what I was going to do and where I was going to go and now I have no idea what is going on except that God is moving in my life. I have tried for so long to stop Him but if death couldn't stop Him then what makes me think I can? I do know that in order to move toward my mission I need to come to know the father much better than I know Him right now and I think that if I get to know Him then He will help me learn who I am, I will learn my mission, I will know where I am supposed to go, what I am supposed to do, how to get there and it will all workout somehow. I know that the road to my mission is going to be a though one. The road is a road lass traveled. But I know that at the end of this road is a reward. If I were to take any other road I would run into a brick wall. I would never find true happiness. Disappointment and I would become best friends. The bottom line is that God is moving in my life and I can continue to try and fight it all I want but I'm only going to wear myself out. I read a quote once that said God cant fix you until you're broken. I am so sick and tired of being broken and I have learned that I cant put myself back together I have to let God.