So I'm A Tad Bit Frustrated

Just as I am starting to get comfortable with myself, with my scars, I am slowly becoming comfortable in my own skin. I don't always feel the need to cover them up but I think I have just taken about 20 steps back. Being made fun of can do that. People laughing cracking jokes after they find out you self injure. Its not fun to be laughed at because of my scars, I have said this before and I will say it again I don't think SI is a joke. SI is not something to be laughed at or taken lightly. I don't SI because I hate my life. I don't SI to be cool. I don't SI for attention. I don't SI as an attempt to kill myself. I am not "emo". Yes you can be a Christian, go to church, love God, and still struggle with a sin or multiple sins, SI being one of those sins. If anyone tries to tell you otherwise they are liars.
PAUSE: This does not mean its okay to sin. But we are not perfect, no one is, God does not expect us to be perfect but he does expect us to try and strive to be like him. In short being a christian is NOT a free pass to sin. UNPAUSE
I do not live in a dark whole and pray to the devil. I am not goth or wiccan by any means. I do not hate myself. I am simply a human being who has developed bad coping skills. I am far from perfect, I sin and have struggles like everyone else. My sin is more common than you think, it is just well hidden by those who do it. It is not funny just like drug addicts, alcoholics, pornography addicts, bulimia, anorexia, smoking, and any other addictions are not funny. Don't tell me SI isn't an addiction because if you haven't tried it then you wouldn't know. That would be like me telling a smoker that smoking is not an addiction and then laughing at him because his lungs are black and he will probably die because of it. That's not funny. We don't laugh at other people and their addictions so why do we laugh at SI? So don't crack jokes like I wish my grass was emo so it would cut itself. Don't pull out your razor phone and start making sawing motions across your arm and start screaming I hate my life, or why isn't this stupid razor working. Its not funny. And you think I am the one seeking attention. I don't know, I guess I will never understand why self injury is so funny. People will be people, welcome to the world.