12:20ish in the AM

Okay so why am I still up at 12:20am? Cuz I can't sleep. I forgot to take my sleeping pill tonight. So I have been watching videos on you-tube because there really isn't much to do at 12am. I was watching videos on SI. So I learned that I probably shouldn't watch videos on SI especially if the video starts out saying "WARNING this video contains graphic images and may be triggering." But I found some pretty good and educational videos. I also found videos of the occasional attention seeking looser making fun of cutters and self injurers. I just have to say that these people are very lucky I will probably never meet them in person because I would probably have to smack them... in Christian love of course:D. So as I am watching these videos on SI some of them had some good songs to go along with the slide show. I learned that ZoeGirl has a song called Scream, and it's about cutting. I also heard a song by Kelly Clarkson called addicted. I have heard this song but it never really had any meaning for me until I was listening to it with SI on the brain. Ugh I'm tired and hungry.... I'm guna attempt to go to bed, we will see how that goes.