So, I realized something. It's amazing how the music I listen to can affect the mood I'm in. I have been listening to Linkin Park alot lately, now i still love Linkin Park don't get me wrong. They have some really good lyrics but alot of them are really depressing. They can be really negative sometimes. Listening to songs like Bleed It Out or Nobody's Listening, I mean those don't sound too encouraging to me. Singing lyrics like:

"Try to give you warning
But everyone ingnores me
(Told you everything loud and clear)
But nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don't want to hear me
(Told you everything loud and clear)
But nobody's listening"
or
"Find a new place to hang this noose
String me up from atop these roofs
Knot it tight so i won't get loose
Truth is you can stop and stare
Bled myself out and no one cares
Dug the trench out laid down there
With a shovel up out of reach some where
Yeah, someone pour it in
Make it a dirt dance floor again"

I mean HELLO, how false is that? No wonder I feel so sad and angry, I'm singing songs about people not listening to me, not only am I singing these lyrics but there are times when I believe them and that's a problem. It's a lie, it's a lie that Satan would love for me to believe. I start listening to these songs when I'm feeling alone or depressed but really they don't build me up and make me feel better, I just feel worse. People do listen to me, and even though I don't always feel loved I know there are people who love me and do care about me other wise they wouldn't have a problem with what I'm doing. So I started listening to Aaron Pelsue and you know what I don't feel so depressed. My mood goes from sad to happy as soon as I start to sing along. I love it. My attitude goes from bad to good, it's awesome! I have never felt so happy, so loved. Weather you believe it or not the music you listen to affects you so don't put crap in your head.