"With this knife I cut the ties and set the pain adrift."

Oh I wish I could cut the ties and set my pain adrift but I know it would noever work. I have tried it so many times before. Over 100 scars on my left arm and still my pain lingers. I am hanging by a tread today, a thin thread that could snap any moment. 33 days, I have been doing good for 33 days. I have been taking it day by day. Yesterday I was doing good, sunday I was doing ok, saturday I was doing good, friday good, but today, today not so much. Today I am hanging by a thread and it's going to snap, I can feel it. It wont take much just a little comment, a bit of bad news, or an ugly look. Its going to happen, my thread is going to snap and when it does 33 days will go down the drain. All my hard work, long agonizing moments sometimes days of denying my flesh will mean noting and I will be back at squair one. Oh what fun it will be.