So my newest scar, a burn the size of a quarter. The strange thing is I don't regret it. If I could take it back I don't think I would. If I could go back to that moment and have a second chance to choose not to burn my self I don't think I would do anything different except add more salt. Cause my self more pain that's all I would do. Maybe I would do it in a different spot, a spot that's not so visible but I would still do it. I don't know why I feel better when I hurt myself. I don't know why I continue to cause myself pain, why I feel like pain is my only escape, the only way out. It must work or I and so many other people would not continue to do it... right?