I don't know how to say what I'm feeling right now. It's frustrating. I want to wright about whats going on in my head, about how I'm feeling but honestly I don't know what to say. There is so much on my mind and no words to explain it all. I feel mute. I cant speak but I want to. It's only been a few days since I cut last. All the physical effects are starting to take place. There's really no way you can deal with the effects. You just have to sit there and take it. It's fun. Come to think of it that's probably why I feel so sad right now and why I can't describe how I'm feeling very well. Should be a fun next few days.