Okay so I am on my NEW laptop (thank you Aunt Ellen!). Just thought I would let you know :D
So I'm feeling a little stressed out. Growing up can be stressful for those of you who didn't know. I am feeling rushed to get my GED so that I can got to college in the fall. No GED = no college. I have no money, what 17 year old does? I have no clue how I'm going to pay for school. I cant take out loans because I wont be able to pay them off once I get out of school. Missionaries don't make enough money to do that. It's kind of scary knowing that you are going to go into the mission field. It requires a lot of faith and trust in the Lord. I mean I have NO idea where I'm going to be a missionary to, and I know for a fact that money will not be something I have a lot of. It is just like walking around in the dark, I don't know where I'm going, when I'm going, how I'm getting there, the language I will be speaking, or how long I'm going to be there. I'm just walking around in the dark listening for Gods voice to guide me to where I need to be. Things are just very unclear right now making life a tad bit difficult.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Friday, February 8, 2008
I'm doin good!
EVERYONE!
Today is day 20 of no SI! I haven’t cut or burnt for 20 days! WOOP WOOP!
God is awesome and He is the reason I have made it this far. Without Him I don’t think I would be doing so well. Sure it’s hard sometimes but just because it’s hard that does not mean that He is not there with me every step of the way. I can feel Him there with me encouraging me and helping me every time I begin to fall. I know that as long as I keep focused on Him I will be ok.
Today is day 20 of no SI! I haven’t cut or burnt for 20 days! WOOP WOOP!
God is awesome and He is the reason I have made it this far. Without Him I don’t think I would be doing so well. Sure it’s hard sometimes but just because it’s hard that does not mean that He is not there with me every step of the way. I can feel Him there with me encouraging me and helping me every time I begin to fall. I know that as long as I keep focused on Him I will be ok.
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Bring The Rain
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
Be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
Praise You Jesus, bring the rain
I love this song! Its called Bring The Rain by mercyme. You should check it out.
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
Be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
Praise You Jesus, bring the rain
I love this song! Its called Bring The Rain by mercyme. You should check it out.
Did my devos
Ok so I haven’t been doing my devos as often as I probably should be. I did like really good the first week and then I just kindu slacked off. I’m really good at slacking off lol. So I just spent my lunch period catching up on my devos. I think I caught up on like 5 days so I’m now only a few days behind so that’s good.
But yea so I just finished my devos and I feel kindu refreshed. I am still kindu feeling depressed but not as depressed (it’s a good thing). I have also decided that I think like the first like 4 or 5 verses of John chapter 1 are like my favorite verses ever in my life. I really need to get back into Gods word on a more regular basis... like on a daily basis. I don’t know if it will “cure” my depression but maybe you never know. God does some cool stuff and it wouldn’t hurt to find out. But yea devos are good and I was really disappointed when I had to stop reading John 1 and go back to lame math class so hopefully the rest of my day goes by quickly so I can go home and finish the chapter or maybe just get completely caught back up on my devos... who knows.
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